Friday, 15 March 2013

This path isn't easy, i'm tellin' you!

Assalamualaikum dearest reader..
As you guys know i'm now in UM, the oldest university in the country and bla...bla..bla..
(too much to tell about it. if you wish to, just google it)..
and studying medicine..and bla..bla..bla
(you think i'm trying to be proud?)
no kidding man..when people said medicine is hard, i said them LIAR! (not 'liar' in bahasa, ok.) 
but, when i'm face it..the one who when through it (i mean myself)..its not that easy, i would say..
get it? MEDICINE IS NOT HARD, BUT IT AINT THAT EASY.. (mean the same for some people)
well, i still not give it up, but apparently i'm still keep failing...oh man!! how i could describe this..
if you think this is rubbish, just dont read it ok..cuz i want to spill it out!! (you can consider it as vomit if you want to). i'm warning you..

i though medic is the only think i can possibly do.
my math is worst..simple calculation can even sometimes confusing..
language is even more..identify any grammar mistakes up there? sure do..

and i though by studying in Malaysia is the best decision, if i wish to become a top student in the faculty- its easier as if i just need to compete with my people not the foreigners..

medic is easy if you know how to deal with it..its like a wild horse. you need to know how to manage it, how to touch it, to make it likes you too... if not, bye bye! it will left you. (please be with me~)

maybe there are hikmah behind all this..yup, i'm forget to mention about the JPA thinggy that makes feel so bad, worsen my emotion.. i didn't manage to get JPA at first. most probably i used to reject it.. but it's ok now. i got the money..BUT! i got less than the other..when i checked, they told me that in their record, mine is not Medic but Akademi Pengajian Islam, Syariah! 

so many things going on that sometimes i felt so bad for myself..UJIAN! yup, i will consider it as ujian/ test from The Highest.. i just need to SABAR..  as Allah has mentioned in His Quran:

And be patient, for indeed, Allah does not allow to be lost the reward of those who do good. (11:115)

Masya-Allah..may Him ease everything..amin~

Saturday, 16 February 2013

be a little positive, please..~

benar, Islam itu mengajar supaya sentiasa bersederhana. 
Kerana Islam itu agama yang sempurna, sedangkan aku tidak.. 
aku manusia biasa, bukan seperti 'plain water' yang sifatnya 'neutral'.
ada ketika aku bisa seperti 'acid' yang sifatnya tersangatlah negatif..
dan ada ketika seperti 'basic' yang terlalu positif..

susah benar untuk aku terima hakikat yang aku terpaksa pulang awal ke kolej. 
yup, perkara kecil yang sangat sukar diterima..mungkin kerana aku perlu meninggalkan keluarga 
dan perlu berdikari semula..
atau mungkin kerana perlu menempuh sem 2
atau pun kerana result yang bakal keluar dan entah apa keputusannya..

itulah realiti.
realiti yang perlu aku hadapi demi mengejar cita-cita
ada ketikanya apabila terlalu mengejar cita-cita,
terlalu memandang ke depan,
sebenarnya kita lupa apa yang dibelakang-
keluarga yang sangat menyokong
kawan-kawan lama
malah, siapa kita ini dahulu.

apa jua keputusan yang bakal keluar
aku akan menerimanya sebagai qada dan qadar Allah
Allah itu Maha Tahu!

sem 2 akan lebih bermakna,
lebih memperbanyakkan usaha, 
lebih mendekatkn diri kepada Allah,
lebih bertambah ilmu,
lebih byk pulang ke rumah drpd merayau entah ke mana :)
lebih segala-galanya..
semoga dipermudahkan.....aminnn!